The Storm Is Coming to an End
These last few years have been absolutely insane, crazy, confusing & unsettling for my family & I. It all started in January 2019 when I got sick and since then “our normal” has been forever changed. We’ve been through cancer, divorce, surgery and of course the pandemic. As I sit here trying to plan out our summer like I’ve always done, I am in complete awe in how much our family has been through. I want to create a summer of celebration & fun while also transitioning to what our new normal will be.
We got use to being on our toes & not knowing what will come next. We got use to having something going on that is effecting our daily life. We got use to chaos. It looks like now the storm is coming to an end with pandemic restrictions being lifted and all the health & family issues resolved.
I know for me, I have always strived in chaos. I am able to “suck it up” and get through. However, I have come to realize that once the chaos has ended & life is calm, that is when I end up dealing with the emotional & mental healing I need to process from what ever chaos just occured. This time around, I will say it is not like that. I made sure that I maintained and processed my emotional & mental health through the last few years.
I made sure to reflect & heal from my divorce.
I made sure to process & acknowledge what I need to do in my life to ensure I don’t have to go through cancer again.
I made sure to focus on self care & maintaining inner peace through out the pandemic.
I keep looking around for signs that my depression is going to return or my emotional health is going to come crashing down. There are no signs… it’s not coming.
Now what I am feeling is excitement & anxiety but the good kind of anxiety. The anxiety that you get when you are about to embark on a new adventure. The anxiety you get when you are about to enter a new chapter in your life. While battling cancer and going through everything these last few years, I kept on dreaming about when I will be able to finally be able to move on and start doing all the things I want to do on my checklist. That is what helped me get through and now that it is here… I don’t know where to start. There is so much I want to do!
Just like when I was fighting cancer, I am going to take it one day at a time and take one step at a time in checking off all those goals & dreams I have.